Yes We Can!

My President is Black >_<

Out & About with my Gurls

Hey Guys, I’m still here

Today is a beautiful day for me, I truly hope those you whom are reading this are having a good day as well. I want to give some love to some of my friends at my old job, We are going to hook up at Johnny Rockets (One of my Faves) this weekend, I can’t wait >_<

Count down to Obama Time, I am ready to get my vote on. If I were able I would be out there putting in much work for Obama. I am just sick of John McCain and his stupid running mate. John McCain is so old and stupid, Now his brainless running mate says she’s getting ready for 2012.

On another note, I think I am going to sell the Condo I use to live in, to many bad memories there, I’m ready to move forward. It’s a new day and a new and improved Kawana.

Lite on that Scale, I am

Hey guys, It’s the Kayster. >_<

Today is a good day, your gurl is the opposite of Amy Winehouse, I’m down for going to rehab lol. Things are getting better, I think I’m starting to look younger, I’m not bragging either or anything like that. It’s weird, maybe it’s because I lost weight and I’m taking all of these vitamins. My ex-dude came by to visit me and he was looking through my aunt Olsey’s camera and saw a picture of me and he thought I was my 19 year old cousin. I guess it’s kind of like a side benefit of my condition, I’m being forced to have a good diet and have also been stripped of all job related stress and such.

You know, I’ve been thinking. Most people look at me now and I think they project their own fears about my condition on me. Like, they are trying to comprehend what I am experiencing, but it’s like you can’t comprehend what I’m going through. I’m not doing great but I’m not in Hell either, I guess this statement is for those who want to visit with me. If you decide to come and see me know that I understand everything you say and I am not someone different, I am still Kawana. I laugh all the time, I make the best of my situation, I feel blessed. So when you come and see me, leave that negative vibe at the door, bring me positive energy and I’ll be happy to see you.

Random Pics: Doing My Thang

New Vans, I got the white ones >_<


Doing my Thang yall


In front of my Aunts (where I stay)

Distilled

My BOYZ!!!!!

Hello Guys I am still here >_<

Your Gurl Kay Kay is still rolling along, I’m getting better everyday, I’m fighting the good fight. I would like to apologize for my blogging absence. I have my up days and down days, it’s all about attitude, I’m really trying to stay positive.

I am still rehabbing everyday (except weekends), I’m getting stronger, it looks like I might be ready to practice on a walker soon, I can almost stand up unassisted and please believe me it’s a challenge. I guess my big hang up has been fear, I’m a little of afraid of falling over and not being able to break my fall, ya know.

On a different note, I am a serious Clemson fan and I am very upset that we lost to Maryland. I don’t know what’s going on with them, it’s been so long since we’ve been good, I’m still a die hard fan GO CLEMSON!

My Aunt Olsey always tries to get me to talk, I don’t really like to talk much. It is really difficult to get these words out, it takes a great effort just to whisper. Blogging fam, when you talk you take for granted all of the various muscles involved in achieving that end. I’m still getting those abilities back. I can say many words, I just choose not to speak, there is a certain type of power in being silent. Olsey was sweating me so hard the other day that I said her name just to get her off my back, I think they she is starting to realize I can use more words than I let on.

I am going to make a strange observation about my existence. There is a kind of serenity in the way I live, I use to be such a busy person, I was always on the go, I always had something to do, I was always worrying, I was always a leader. Now I don’t have much to worry about, save getting back on my feet and becoming independent. Life is really simple for me now, perhaps that is the major lesson I have learned from my experience. It’s like now I know who my true friends are, I know my family members truly have my back, Everything has been distilled so to speak.

The Kayster Throwback

Hey Guys! I am Still here don't trip >_<

Excuse me but FUCK these doctors and what not, your gurl is gonna be back on her feet in a minute. I am feeling really great these days, I know I haven't blogged in a minute, but everything is good.

The pic I above is a old pic, I'll say it's from around 2000 or 2001, It's me and my Ex-Dude (The one that made my video). Anyways He came to see me about a year ago when I was still living at the Adult care facility, I hadn't seen him for at least 5 years before that. Needless to say I wasn't really happy to see him, cause of tha way we broke up, but we kind of cool now. He was all emotional, but it was understandable. I also put up this pic because I thought I looked really cute hehe. Oh and I'ts not like were getting back together or anything like that.

I got my period back a few weeks ago, can you believe that? The doctors of course told me I would never have another one. As a matter of fact the very same doctors told my family I had ZERO chance of surviving. I guess it's good policy for doctors to give folks bleak outcome, what do you think?

This brain injury stuff is crazy, it's like one day I can't do something then the next day I can, like magic almost.

So blog fam, I'm okay over here, I still going to Rehab, I'm working hard. I'm able to say new words everyday, I know that sounds crazy, but It is what is happening. I want everyone to pray for me, I feel like the prayers are reaching me and helping me, so keep doing it;-)

Go Barack!

Still Here :-) Sorry I've been away

I love Jack In The Box

Excuse Me, I am still here lol. Yes blog fam, friends and family I am still here. Please forgive your gurl for not posting for over a month, but hey, stuff happens. Feel free to wish me a Happy belated B-Day, I turned 33 on July 21 ;-)

So let me tell you what happened to the Kayster, As you all know, I have been doing the rehab thing, needless to say, was very difficult. I started out on an out patient level, then I was fortunate enough to go to a Hospital in Fullerton and be there 24-7 for a few weeks, and well that was kind of rough.

I just don’t like some of those Nurses out there, what can I say, I feel like this, if you don’t like your job, get in a different line of work, you know? I thought I was doing better with the rehab on an out patient level, I think I prefer that, I like going home at the end of the day and being around family. After being at the hospital for a few days I discovered that my Physician wanted to run some tests on me to determine if I would be able to benefit from more aggressive rehabilitation, specifically aimed at helping me walk again. I also discovered during my stay that I have a condition that effects my ability to speak called Apraxia, It is the inability form words with the muscles in your throat, no doubt a very frustrating situation. Now at the end of my stay in the Hospital my Physician informed my family that I also have a condition known as Heterotopic Ossification, I know that is a complicated looking set of words, but those are 20 dollar words for excessive bone growth. What is happening is my hip joints are actually fusing together, and so are several other joints. This is something that can happen to anyone suffering from a severe stroke or any other severe brain injury. I was wondering why I had so much pain when I tried to move.

Anyways, they hope to control this bone growth with medication, then as soon as it stops I can get an operation and get this rehab going full tilt. I got to tell you I am so happy for the support of my family and friends.