Infinite Possiblities

Hey Guys, I just had to post this pic. This is Capo Beach, not far from my Aunt Olsey's place (Where I reside for the time being). I'd like to send some love out to my blogging fam and all of my friends whom aren't bloggers who come here to see how I'm doing.

I'm still fighting guys, My Aunt Olsey got me tapes to listen to that help me with my speech problems, it's tough but I won't quit. Oh yeah, I check my blog almost everyday, so if you come by here to check on me, you'd better leave me a comment! O_o

The Belmont Pier

Hey Guys, I'm still here ya know. I hope everyone is enjoying this good weather we are having, I sure am. Thats why I posted a pic of a nice place to visit and have lunch, The Belmont Pier in Long Beach California, you should check it out.

Well it's been a minute since I posted somthing meaninful, I hope I didn't depress anyone with my last post, I was meant for those of you out there who might have been feeling down, Valentine's Day does that to some folks. Now, moving foreward, I would like to announce somechanges in my treatments. My Dotor doesn't want me to do the oxygen chamber thing (I dont't want to do it either), he believes it might be dangerous for me since I am still taking a blood thinner called Coumadin. The reason I am taking Coumadin is because they still haven't figured out why I had that stroke, which is kind of scary. The treatments available to me now include Stem Cells and some type of Vitamin drink that stimulates brain cells, Oh and lets not forget good ole working out which I imagine will be super painful arrrhh, oh well.

I'm getting better, I can move my body a little more now, I can even stand up for a while (with a little help from Olsey and my Grandmother), My right side hurts so bad when I try to move that I know I can move, I just need to manage that pain. so while I'm getting better, I'm hanging out watching "American Idol & Next Top Model" in my aunts living room.

Happy Valentines Day ;-)

Me and My cousin Tima

Hey guys, Well today is Valentine's Day, A day for Love & Happiness indeed. Well for me this is quite the ominous anniversary, one year ago I had my stroke which changed my life forever. A year ago my family and friends did not know if I was going to survive through the night.

The days leading up to my stroke I had been experiencing severe headaches, not out the ordinary because I always had headaches from time to time, however these headaches were causing me to vomit. I could keep any food down. Then on Valentine's morning a year ago today, I woke up in the morning, went to the bathroom to get ready for work and I passed out. By the time my Fiance' found me I was dead, I had no pulse and I was not breathing. So I am very fortunate that I am still here. I was told that I had three brain surgeries and I was in a coma for months.

I am a 32 year old African American Professional Woman, I didn't do drugs, I don't smoke and I don't drink. I am a God fearing Christian Woman, I tried to do everything right, I worked hard and I'll admit I'm not perfect. Yet and I still suffered a severe stroke that took almost everything away from me, I cannot understand why this happened to me, but it did. Let this be a cautionary tale for anyone reading my words, enjoy every moment of your life, I've learned life is extremely fragile and precious. On this Valentines Day just be happy, If your lover doesn't meet your gift expectations don't let it get you down, just be happy you have one, you know ;-)

This is your gurl Kay Kay yall saying Happy Valentines Day, Don't be scared to give me a shout out!

I Love my Grandmother

Hey Guys, This is my Grandmother, I love her soooo much. The other night she had me laughing hard talking about Britney Spears, she said "They need to leave her in that hospital and not let her out". My Grandmother is way to real, I thank God for her. My Ex-Dude came to visit me the other day which I wasn't really feeling, then when he was about to leave my Grandmother told him to "Give her a little kiss on the forehead" I looked at her like "What", then I rolled my eyes at him like "I wish you would" he knew the business. ;-)

You know last X-Mass I cooked dinner for my whole family, My culinary skills were the bomb. I sent for my Grandmother and I suprised her by showing her a room I fixed up for her at my Condo, then I tried to talk her into staying with me, she declined, the rest of my family needed her in South Carolina. Fast Foreward to the present, she came back out here to live with me and help me get back on my feet, isn't that ironic? I thought I would be taking care of her, but now she's taking care of me, Again.

Family

This painting reminds me of Family, Nothing is more important than Family. I have always been about that throughout my life and over the course of the last year I wouldn't have survived without the Love of My Family.

I'm getting some of these words back guys, I guess I'm kind a like a parrot these days. I can hear a familiar word, then I practice repeating it. The type of Aphasia I have is called Broca's Aphasia, I understand the words people say to me but it's very difficult to say certain words. I know this all sounds very strange, however the brain works in strange ways. They say my brain is healing itself, even though I can't feel it, it's what you call Brain Plasticity. So as I go through this healing process, I go to sleep at night not knowing how to do somthing, Only to wake up the next day and I can magically do it, it's weird.

I want to give a Big Shout Out to all of my Gurls at OCDE, I love you guys.

GO BARACK!!!!!!

Me & The Big Homie Kev ;-)

Hey Guys, Your gurl Kay Kay is still here, I hope everyone out there is doing well :-) I haven't blogged in a minute, but I do come through and read my comments, and I must say my comments are truely inspirational. Well guys what can I say, Im fighting everyday to get my life back, everyday things get a little better.

My aunt has got me going to see the Stroke Doctor, this guy is incredible, and expensive. One day at his facility is about $250.00, no joke. However, his facility features the latest and cutting edge treatments for brain injuries available. The first time I visited his facility they placed me in a Hyperbaric Oxygen chamber in order to breathe 100% oxygen, It was okay at first, then it freaked me out. After one treatment in that chamber my family said they noticed a difference in my awareness level. I didn't notice anything except that chamber was hot and claustrophobic. The next treatment they want to try on me is Stem Cells, can you believe that? They way they explained it to me was that they inject the stem cells near the area of Brain Damage and the Stem Cells automatically migrate to the area thats damaged and forms new connections. For the life of me I cannot undersrtand how they do that and deeper still I cannot understand why all of that insurance I have been paying for for years doesn't cover this. America is a crazy place.

Oh well, I'm just gonna keep on keeping on, somthing is gonna work out, I can feel it.

Emancipation!

Me & My Gurls from The Orange County Department of Education

When I worked there I was Director of Family Services, you can Google my name, they still have me listed as an employee ;-) I'll be Back!

Hey Guys, I hope everyone out there is having a good day and a Happy New Year :-) Once again I want to say thanks to all of my new blogging fam, the comments are all so supportive, you guys make me feel good I decided to do this blog thing. Right before X-Mass my Aunt broke me out of the Adult Care facility (Nursing Home) and I am happy to announce that I will finally be returning to my Condo, yes I am very happy about that. Truth be told, Living in that environment was not the business, That was a place of decline, not incline and I am on the INCLINE.

People see me now and they are shocked, When I was admitted to the hospital after I passed out on Valentine's morning 2007, My family was told I had ZERO chance of survival. I was placed in an induced Coma for almost 2 months to keep my brain from swelling and to reduce the risk of further Brain Damage and a condition called Vasospasm. Near the end of the 2nd month in that Coma I opened my eyes and began to go through every stage of consciousness, from Coma to Vegitative State to Minimally Conscious to the state I am in now. For my family this process has been long and scary, for me It all happened in a split second, I still can't believe almost a year has passed.

So here I am, At war with myself trying to regain total control of my body, My Aunt moved my arm the other day, I hurt so bad I slipped and called her a Bitch, I was a spontaneous type response, she laughed at me and said "What did you call me?", remember I have difficulty speaking LOL. In a few days I will be at my own house, my Grandmother and Uncle moved out here from South Carolina to help me get back on my feet, SO pray for me guys.

Now since I'm new to this being tagged thing, I was slow to respond. I was tagged by Kimpossible, this is a nod to her. Warning my 8 weird things may not be so weird.

1. I once told Mike Bibby (Of the Sacramento Kings) him and his team were "Weak" and would never beat the Lakers, this was during the Playoffs back in 2001. I saw him at the Beverly Center after a Game.

2. When I was a little girl I owned a Monkey.

3. I am a Career Woman, Yet I Love to Cook for lots of people.

4. I started point gaurd on the Girls Varsity basketball team at San Clemente High School.

5. I have appeared in many Music Videos, BET Specials, Movies and Sitcoms. As a matter of fact I actually paid my bills and lived good off of acting and being and extra. I feel like I had a serious shot at making it in Hollywood, the Weird thing about me however, I was unwilling to do all of the "extra" things you need to do to make it. I made it all the way up to the point where you needed to have sex with a few people to get that good role, I just couldn't do it. I'm glad I was attending Grad School while I was doing all of that, so when the time came I just quit ;-)

6. While I was doing my Hollywood thing me and several other gurls were hired to be servers at some big time movie producers pre-oscar party. We were painted gold from head to toe, that was crazy. when it was over I drove over to my ex-dude's house like that, he tripped out when he saw me.

7. I am from the South, I moved to Orange County from South Carolina when I was in the 9th grade. Most people when they move here from other places they are quick to convert themselves into Southern Californians. They wanna act like they were from California all along, not me though, I have always maintained my Southern Status. Even before being being from the South became Hot.

8. Even though I am not Ghetto, Even though I am a very professional and progressive woman, I had to put hands on my fomer fiance's babymama. Yes, while at a parade in Orange County this female threw water in my face, I had done nothing to her. I beat her until serveral people restrained me, I am not proud of that.

I hope those 8 things were good Kim ;-)



I want people out there to know this about me, I am not here to beg for help, If you can help do what you can. I guess my plight sheds light on the realities of health care and insurance, because I have insurance. The problem is that I need very aggresive therapy that for some reason is not covered by insurance, isn't that strange?